A Bittersweet Beginning
Hi everyone! First, welcome to my blog! I am so very excited to begin this journey and the next "new beginning" of my life.
Before I detail what I envision this blog to be, I would love to share a little story of me. I am 24 years old and live in the middle of the woods, New Jersey. Over the past year or so, I have undergone a full out "spiritual awakening" or raise of consciousness. As many of you may be able to resonate with, your life undergoes a uhaul through this process. Black is white, and white is black. Friendships are lost, and perspectives are shifted.
About a year and a half ago, I was applying to dietetic internship programs throughout the country on my quest to become a Registered Dietitian. I poured my heart, soul and more than my fair share of tears into the process. I was determined. I saw the end goal and me as a clinical dietitian and nutrition professional. The moment I found out I was matched to not only "a" program - as only half of students get matched - but my dream school, is still my proudest moment. Today, however, I found myself in my advisor's room, in tears and dropping out of my once beloved program.
This decision serves as an ultimate metaphor for me; this is the final layer I'm shedding from my old self. I am now in closer alignment with my belief paterns and higher self. I am claiming my power in the best and only way I know how.
The universe is a mirror for our own beliefs. So when multiple people in my life questioned my decision and sounded sincerely concerned for me, I had to ground myself and take a look in this universal mirror. Of course I am scared. Of course this was an impossible decision. But that did not mean it was the wrong one. I used another technique that truly brought me back to Mama Earth; I changed my perspective. I asked myself, how would I advise a person in my situation who wondered whether or not she was making the right decision? Instantly, the thought was "whatever decision you make is the right decision." And so it is.
I am so incredibly blessed, yet I am often equally as critical of myself. It's finally time for me to take a step back and just be. Go with the flow. The path to becoming a dietitian was the path of what has already been done. It is the path of so many others before me as well as those going through it now. It was also my path, until now. When I think of my future, I can only see a flood of interlocking energies. My path does not yet exist. It is up to me to carve my way through that sea of energies.
I have dreamed of this day of starting my "brand" so to say for quite some time, so I think it is quite suitting that it comes on the eve of my mini-divorce from dietetics.
As for this blog, it is a blog of me, the universe, and you! I am constantly on a quest for truth, my truth, and so this blog is just a little companion guide along the way. I have learned so much from just watching different personalities on YouTube and reading the many articles online pertaining to spirituality and this spiritual awakening, and I truly believe we all have an individual voice in this world. No two perspectives are the same, and I have much to offer as well! We are all on this planet at the same time and ultimately for the same reason, to participate in this ascension process of the Earth.
I love you all so much and thank you for being here with me! <3
Samantha
